My sleep pattern is still completely out of whack! I am up all night and then sleeping until the early evening and I just cannot seem to break the cycle. It is taking a toll on me both mentally and physically. I feel like crap, but that also could be due to any number of things besides the sleep situation.
This year I am dreading Christmas. I really would just prefer to stay home as it would mean I would be much more comfortable, however after how my mom reacted last year when I initially said I was not coming I know I will probably get the same treatment this year. She has to understand that because of my current condition I just cannot tolerate sleeping on a tiny couch down in her basement. Plus her place is so much warmer compared to the cooler temperature I keep my apartment. If my pregnant sister is not forced to come home then I will make a stand and demand that I don't have to go either. Christmas, and I suppose everything else for that matter has lost its luster for me. I just see holidays as any other ordinary day.
I noticed today that my friend Adam had me as a friend on LJ and I have no idea how he managed to find me on here. I realize he probably just took a guess that I used my 10 year old online alias I used back in the day, but I never really wanted him to see my journal...not that there is anything to hide. I was actually surprised to see he has made a few posts in his journal that he appears to have made only a few months ago.
My uncle's wife Jessica apparently just won't leave my sister alone with her email responses in which she is trying to make my sister feel guilty. As I believe I mentioned in a previous entry my sister is now nearing the 8th month of her pregnancy and thus she had a baby shower my mom hosted for her a week ago. Jessica was not invited and so she has made my sister feel quite guilty and added unneeded stress. My mom was the host so she was the one who invited my sister's friends and relatives. My mom said she didn't know Jessica and thus did not invite her. Now when my sister and I were invited to the engagement brunch for our uncle and Jessica our mom had to sit outside in her car for 3-4 hours even though they could have invited her. I also reminded my sister that Jessica never invited her to her baby shower...so basically I feel Jessica can shut her trap. I am tempted to write her a email basically stating this, however the last thing I needed is drama from her and subsequently my uncle...whom I have spoken to in a few months. I just think she is being hypocritical bitching about not getting invited when she did the same thing herself.
I have noticed that the majority of people who smoke out front of my apartment are ridiculous chain smokers. I watched one lady smoke 5 cigarettes one right after the other! Now when I have my window open to let in some fresh air all I can smell in the bloody smoke! The provincial governments smoking laws are a joke as they can't really enforce them. I am tempted to try and find out if there is someone I can talk to have something done about this. If the smokers want to smoke then left them go smoke at the back of the building by the laundry room windows or have them be 10-20 metres from the building, in the parking lot area. I should not have to have my apartment smell like smoke.
After reading over this post it seems like all I had to write about was rants. I guess it is difficult to find something interesting to write about when you haven't done anything.